I am calling this entry “The 5 Mile Long Post”. There is a lot of catching up to do in many different areas, so let’s get started.
First, my Mother bless her heart. This is the main reason I’ve dropped out of existence for a while. Several weeks ago, things got very bad for her and I ended up moving in with her. As with how her health problems have been since November, things had gone from bad to worse. After yet one more ER visit, the ER Doctor got me on the phone. He told me that my Mother was in Advanced End Stage Lung Disease (this was news) and that I “needed to grow up and accept the fact that she is dying and that she and I needed to get use to it”. What a nice man..that I might add, last I checked is still on Administrative Leave! He sent Mom home saying that there was nothing wrong with her. Two days later she was admitted to the hospital for what would end up being a seven day stay. (nothing wrong with her, eh?) On the seventh day I took her to a Rehab Clinic for treatment of Steroidal Myopathy. She was there for 1 week and was sent home. Did I happen to mention that Mom has lost from 165 to 121 pounds since November and can no longer walk?
After 4 days at home, she fell. Now she is in a Skilled Nursing Home & Rehabilitation Center. Her estimated time there is 6 weeks. I now have a little break.
I’m finally back at the farm full time. It is amazing how much has been lost over these past months since Mom started going downhill. My business has suffered to the point that there is no income being generated at all. Because of promising orders would be filled, then emergencies that took me away from the farm, I am a bit “gun shy” now about trying to promise anyone anything. There are so many calls to make, emails to answer and at this point I’m not sure what to say…sorry just doesn’t seem to cut it. So wish me luck with this task.
Even though Mom is in a facility, that doesn’t mean that my responsibility with her ceases – so I am still seeing how many directions I can go in on a daily basis!
I realized yesterday that I had not lined up a shearer this year. My friend, Kathy – Scarlet Fleece is taking a shearing class so I offered up my flock for practice subjects. She is just as particular as I am, so I know she’ll do a wonderful job. Thank God for friends.
Since Mom’s illness has been far reaching into our lives, we also had not seeded, limed or fertilized our fields in the Fall, so this past weekend we started that project and hope to finish this coming weekend. The time change will help out a lot with all of the projects on the list..like cleaning the barn (a usual Winter project for us). This year is house painting year too. We are very lucky that this project is only trim and shutter painting. Also, before we know it, it will be garden and market season and we haven’t ordered the first seed.
Last night my husband announced he will be going to training school in April, so I get to be both the woman and man of the farm. The dates he will be gone are dangerously close to that 6 week mark with Mom – more stress that I didn’t need!
So anyway, I am back! Keep checking back to see my Blog-I promise there will be less illness and poor me and more about the farm. It’s a wonderful time of year and I look forward to green pastures and dandelions!
I’ve been checking in on you MaLinda. I realized that you were over your head with the loss of your lamb and you mom and just the regular duties of life. I hope you get a second wind soon. We all need one.
I pray that Spring will bring you blessings that abound! Yes, and green pastures and dandelions!!! Bring it on!
One foot in front of the other, each and every day — that’s all it takes. Don’t think down the road stuff, just one foot in front of the other. If you look at your current life situation that way, it will make it possible to get through this.
Wishing you the best in the upcoming weeks and hoping Spring will find you back on even ground.
Don’t apologize for being a good daughter. Work, family, friends…they will have to understand. First, let me wish you and your mother all the good health and patience I can muster. As a daughter of a man who had a double lung transplant then endured 6 1/2 years of chronic rejection after 25 years of lung disease, let me just say that being the support person is a blessing and a burden but I will forever remember the blessing.
Your business will pick up again and your customers will come back. The farm chores will somehow get done and your sanity will remain in check. How do I know? Been there, done that. I am still rebounding from the last months of my Dad’s life and now I am attempting to get his estate in check but meanwhile I keep on truckin’ with a big ol’ smile.
My thoughts are with you and I promise they are all positive and full of energy.
bless your little heart. things will get better…then sun don’t shine on the same dog’s tail everyday. keep us updated and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers…one foot forward…one foot forward…one foot forward…thats all you can do.